ExDetectives - Take My Forever - 2011

ExDetectives - Take My Forever - 2011

Credits:

Original release date: December 25, 2011.

Documented Post Planetary in June 2025.

Written and performed by Faris McReynolds. Recording, mixing, and drums by Ted Scarlett.

Artwork by Faris McReynolds.

ExDetectives was a live band from 2007-2011, but I started writing the songs we used to play around 2002. I made this album quickly with Ted after ending the band. It was no fault of theirs, I just couldn't spend time on a live band anymore. We made a few recordings, and I struggled with singing the way I wanted to over a loud band. I'm not a performer.

This album was made in two weeks in a room at Bedrock. Most of these songs were 5-10 years old by then.

Take My Forever - Lyrics:

Cleaner

It’s hard to go on just pretending
Win or lose, it’s all the same
“You still look good”
Understand, you’re comfortable, comfortable
I’m a soul of gas beneath the flame
Everyone knows that’s not okay
Comfortable, you don’t understand it

All along
Over did
Underwent
Nothing gives

Save it up
Slave away
No respite came today

Loans can buy you bigger walls
A larger place for feeling small
Force it down
Choke it back
You’ll learn to love the taste

All the water’s gone
Every field is stone
Everybody knows

At least we saw it coming

Straighten out your crooked ways
“Some day man, but not today”
Force it down
Choke it back
Or, smile and walk away

All the water’s gone
Every field is stone, now
Everybody grows

At least we saw it coming
Just because you can is no reason

The Crown

Reticent, changing
Incompetent
Strangely, this is all you get
You are not yet free

Long day, fading
It’s a long way
Maybe it’s the wrong way
You were not there to see

Didn’t fear what I saw coming
I was dumb enough
I know the weight of the crown
Pulls you down, pulls you down

Afterwards we all go on to be

Savor it
Hold it still
Don’t belabor it
Try too hard – you’ll embarrass it
A bleeding heart isn’t free

Phone it in
You can’t bear it
Accomplishment – you can’t wear it
Abandonment is all you’ll ever achieve

Didn’t fear what I saw coming
I was dumb enough
I know the weight of the crown
Pulls you down, pulls you down

Afterwards we all go on to be

Can You Feel It?

I’ll spin outwards ‘til I learn something
Dull, so dull
Sooner, later, I don’t care
Dull, so dull

Can you feel it?

Who’s your favorite?
Which one fills you with love, sweet love?
Drown your senses
Since it ended
Dull, so dull

Can you feel it?

Line up to be completely bored and lonely

Completely bored and lonely

Can you feel it?

The Lawn

Hundreds of years go

Where does it end?
I don’t know, but it feels like a long time from now

What do you see when you look in that window?
Something that animals never should know

Meet me on the lawn
Of a future halfway gone
I could prove me wrong every day

How does it feel to be original, real?
Something that animals already know

They already know
Meet me on the lawn
Of a future halfway gone
I could prove me wrong every day

Careless Hysterics

Let’s cross the edge
Who thinks that anyone could be so sure?
Let’s cross the X
We’re all in
Don’t you want to be that more?

Something for the pain
Stand still frozen to the floor
That’s just for the safe
You want it full?

Faster, get back
Bet you never get to
I don't get it
What we endure/ignore
Massive, cracked to pieces

Wait your turn

I still can’t believe
It’s going too slow for me
It’s taking forever
I know, nothings free

I still can’t believe
It’s going right over me again
Take my forever
I hope it never ends

Something for the pain
Stand still frozen to the floor
That’s just for the safe
You want it full?

Master's crack to pieces

Master's crack to pieces

Master's crack to pieces

Master's crack to pieces

Come on Down

Come on down

Come on down

Come on down

Come on down

Don’t let it get out of control
Perfect life, broken soul

Won’t stop nothing
Nothing’s good

Come on down

Come on down

Come on down

Come on down

It’s how it starts
It’s how it goes
Just how it finishes
No one fcking knows
Won’t stop nothing
Nothing’s good

Halcyon

Long ago it’s halcyon, I can’t remember
Drink the tears, bleach the stains away
All the words I tried to say return to sender
Little bits of yellow yesterday

Chase the rising sun
Don’t wait for the rising sun
Chase the rising sun
Change your mind and run

Save it for a rainy day
A smoking ember

Little bits of yellow yesterday
Little baby apathy
A clone, a drone, a dying breed
Icicles that drip and melt away

Chase the rising sun
Don’t wait for the rising sun
Chase the rising sun
Change your mind and run

New History

Tell me you believe in something
Don’t look down
Don’t look down

Tell me you’ve at least got someone better to go hang your love on
Ignore the plea from me to you: “Unify our world”
Don’t let it disappear

I have a lot to learn
Teach me something easy
Easy

Tell me you believe in something
Don’t look down, take my hand
A stoic decree to me from something I don’t understand
Do you ever wander?

I have a lot to learn
Teach me something easy
Easy

What new history?

So long

A little feeble folly
Of an amusing kind
Keep over-reaching, man
It sounds so trite
So contrived
Nevermind

I’m such an easy target
One, in an endless line
Don’t know what’s right for me
Pay me no mind
Me no mind
Nevermind

Old heart, beaten still
Hold on, let’s start over
Hold on, I hear the demons getting through


So long

Old heart, beaten still
Hold on, let’s start over
Hold on, I hear the demons getting through

So long

It’s Better

Broken dreams of wasted people wasting things for fun
On your knees to pray for things you can’t afford to own

Someone, somewhere
There must be someone somewhere who wants it too
Someone, somewhere
There must be someone somewhere who wants it better
It’s better

Long lost peoples drink their evils
Facing towards the sun
On your feet
Get grateful
Please get therapy and learn how to love

Someone, somewhere
There must be someone somewhere who wants it too
Someone, somewhere
There must be someone somewhere who wants it better
It’s better

Pocket Rainbow

Pocket rainbow
Toxic ego
Talking, are you?
Talking, are you?
What surrounds you now?

Greedy gets the harder it goes
Disconnect from what surrounds you now
From what surrounds you now
What surrounds you now?
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind
Pocket rainbow

Closing Bell

We are waiting for a real purpose
They will fake the part, and get it perfect
Chip away at the things that make you crazy
In the end, you never had to hate me
Drift forward ‘til there’s nothing left inside you

Closer still to closing bell
Suddenly, it’s everywhere
You can never force real change
Those stunted eyes just see what they want to see

This is another last time again
And it never needs a reason to start
A steady ride
Totally fcking boring

Drift forward ‘til there’s no one left behind you
Closer still to closing bell

Drift forward

© 2011 Faris McReynolds (Fractured Practice ASCAP)